Common to many of us who are students of conscious manifesting, we can dive and dive and dive until we lose touch with the lightness and joy of life overall. This is a gentle reminder for you to take it easy and delegate more to the powers that be (aka your inner being, God-self, source energy, greater part of you, the father part of the father and I are one, etc.).
This need to control details stems from a very basic trust that our specific desires will not manifest. What we may see as a lack of trust is trust itself- in the absence of what we would like. If we can’t lean back, put our feet up and enjoy watching things come together for us, then we are indeed, in that moment at least, forgetting who we really are.
The constant need to do more research, learn more techniques, hear more lectures, read more books… is often (ok almost always) stemmed in living in an end that is different than the one we are looking to manifest. This is what causes some sort of panic- a rush to do something different, try something new. However, the only thing to be done differently is to be done in consciousness only. To accept an end and appropriate it. To see lovingly for yourself.
The next time you find yourself scrambling for answers, stop yourself and acknowledge that there is nothing for you to do. You’ve already planted the seed. Anything that might need to be done on your part will be done by natural impulse. If you have to even ask yourself if you should or should not do a thing… don’t. The rational mind can help to determine what you want. It is not to be relied upon for the natural path to your wish fulfilled.
Learn to release the grasp. This is not your 9 to 5. This is not some competition to please a boss. This is not a sprint for a trophy and prize. This is relaxing into the state of being exactly who you would like to be and feeling from there. There isn’t much rationale involved at all.